Getting to Goal….
This morning, I woke up at 10AM. Many things went though my mind as I sat up in bed. First, I thought, wow, my hip feels sore. Then, as I stood up, I could hear my knees creak and thought, wow, I think I just woke up the whole house. But the serious thought was….why am I still over 200 lbs? I went to the bathroom and stepped on the scale. Complete horror as I looked at the digits. 261.6 lbs. Oh my goodness! I have not even lost 20 lbs. since my highest 4 years ago. Now that is not good! And my last thought was that this year, it will be different. But what makes this time different? I have said this every Sunday for the past 10 years. ”Next Sunday, I will start again.” Where is this getting me? Why am I not consistently losing weight? Why am I not under 200 lbs? Why am I still such a fat ass? I know I don’t like being this way, but what is going to make me change. I have a huge closet full of clothes that I want so desperately to wear, but I am way too big for them. The sizes are not even that much smaller. I have sizes ranging from size 22 to size 10. I am currently in a size 24. *Gasp* Yep, I wear a size 24 and 3X. That is only one size away from my highest! What is it going to take? If I don’t start moving in the right direction, I will be over 300 lbs.
So, today is the day!!!! I woke up this morning trying to see what I have done so wrong for the past 10 years. The only one answer that I can come up with is that I have not been consistent and patient. I want the weight off yesterday….but if I don’t work my program, that won’t happen. I need to eat less and become more active. There are no short cuts or magic pills. There is not secret to weight loss. It is blood, sweat, and tears. So, today is a new day. I am going to get to goal….I will take one day at a time and show consistency. I will keep this blog as documentation on where I am going and where I have come from. Today is the last day that I will be okay with weighing 261.6 lbs. My goal is to be 150 lbs. A healthy weight. I will stop killing myself. I will love myself!!!!! This time will be different.